Nigeria’s controversial
dresser and OAP, Denrele Edun has paid tributes to friend Goldie who died just
few days after returning from the Grammy Awards in the United States 5 years
ago.
Goldie was a Nigerian music star and a very
close friend to Denrele. In remembrance of her death, the Tv presenter went to
her grave site at the cemetery on the 14th of this month which was the day she
died to pay tribute to her.
He wrote: You have been dead for FIVE YEARS
now.
I can’t say it has been easy learning to live
without you. Heading into year FIVE, I can say I have started to make real
progress. I can talk about your death without crying. I can look people in the
eye and tell them how you died. And now I finally feel like I can be honest
with you. Okay, not with you per se, but I can be honest with myself about you.
I’ve come to terms with the fact that I will
never see you again. It was incredibly difficult to reconcile my desire to see
you again with my belief that there is no afterlife. I used to look for you
everywhere, hoping that you were watching over me and sending me signs. But I
don’t need you to linger anymore. I am finally at ease with your passing.
It shouldn’t have been a secret that I loved
you for being more than a friend and closer than family. While I was completely
satisfied with what I thought was the ideal platonic male/female relationship,
I know others thought that we could be perfect for each other. How
serendipitous it would have been!
It pains me to admit that I think about you
more now than I did when you were alive. I stare into your negative space and
fear that one day I will go twenty-four hours without pausing to remember you.
I let your tense slide from present to past and even past perfect.
While it is frightening to think of what comes
next, somehow, in your own way, you’ve prepared me for it. You were my first
friend and my first eulogy. I think it would make you, the eternal optimist
that you were, happy to know that your friendship keeps making me a better,
stronger person. You showed me that I can function in the face of tragedy. You
taught me the vocabulary of grief so I can comfort others when they need it. I
never would have asked for it to be this way, but if this is what I can take
from it, I will.
So, dearest friend, that’s all I have to share
for now. I’ll raise a glass for your 38th birthday this October, and, as
always, I’ll keep you in my thots.
P.S: I wore YOUR DRESS to ur graveside. It’s
ripped here and there (You’ll pull my hair out for this) but it’s cos I’v been
dancing #Skibobo in it all day long!
RIP GOLDIE
RIP GOLDIE
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